I just watched "I am number 4" again. It kinda sucks that even a movie we watched on a date can affect me so much. I remember that we had seats for 2 different movies in that same theatre hall right behind the seat we were in the week before. I remember leaning over to kiss her several times throughout the movie. I remember thinking to my self that I will love Wern for the rest of my life. Kinda referenced it off the movie where he said, "our people will only fall for one person throughout their entire lifetime."
I was so sure that we were going to spend our lives together, so sure that she was the one. Even if you argue that there's more than one choice, she was the one I chose. Definitely... I prayed about it, spent a lot of time contemplating, asking if she was the one. In my heart I knew she was the one. Then why did we break up? After being so sure, we still broke up. After the movie, I thought to myself, "Life sucks, this is going to happen over and over and over again. Get back up and move on." Yet I'm still here blogging like an emo kid who is ready to slice up his hand...
This is the first relationship where I gave my all... Before this, I kept my heart hard and solid. Didn't get hurt, but at the same time I didn't feel much love either... Now when I finally soften my heart to someone, I ended up not being able to sustain it... I promised her I would go home, I promised her.... She was the first girl who actually told me that she loved me more than 50 times(not considering my mom). Sigh, I wish we could be together...
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