I can't stand it... ='(

Lord, is there no other way? Why must things end between Wern and I? Does committing my life mean that I must drop everything? For real? Everything? Remember when I asked you to let me have her as a partner after recommitting my life because I can't stand being alone? Didn't you create woman as a companion for man? Isn't she the one I'm going to marry in the future? Or was the plan for me to be single all along? Shouldn't it be easier for us to sustain a long distance relationship with you in our lives? Why is it then that we aren't able to? You see my tears, and you see her tears, you know the pain we feel and the struggles that we go through. Please tell me your plan. Please... I need to know... Trust you with all my heart, I know, but can't you just tell me?